Ebola Hemorrhagic Fever in the Republic of the Congo
basically your entire vascular system fails, turning to mush, and you bleed yourself to death on the inside. i have received a job offer that will bring me to the heart of the region where this "fever" is currently outbreaking.
it's been a week and a lot to note as rationalization for not keeping up with this web journal venture.
slept with an ex-girlfriend. not a good idea this time, though some say it never is.
when someone has insecurities, is it inevitable that they'll attribute to you the same judgements they have of themselves, and then blame you for thinking the very things about them that they think about themselves even though there is scant evidence that you actually think these things and you really don't. or at least you didn't...
earlier that day i got a call about this documentary in equatorial africa on the MSF (doctors without borders). something about embarking mid-july and covering humanitarian aid missions in impoverished nations - AIDS, malnutrition... In the week since, it's turned into leaving anywhere from a week from now (don't i need shots or something?) to the first week in july and moved from sad zones into HOT ZONES, like COMBAT ZONES, which are certainly also sad but with the addition of artillery. the director and producer took me out for lunch today and asked after my physical fitness. like, can i run through the jungle if chased by rwandan militia? hm...
meanwhile, $550 a day for battlegrounds part 3. booked 5 days originally, with the offer of fifteen for later in the month. now i'll be lucky if i get 5 total. they keep changing plans, ruining my money.
tonight i'm loading the worst footage i've ever seen in my life. the project will remain nameless so i don't get fired if anyone ever reads this. i am amazed people were paid to make what i'm looking at.
but i have the promise of endless consistent employment from this post house, and when you weigh that against africa, at exactly the same day rate (which they do indeed share), they have so little to do with each other that i can't even remember my own name.
MEANWHILE
i'm only using credit cards for expenses due to lack of cash. there are many expenses. but i have jobs. so, one day, i will also have money. but when? and will it be soon enough?
it's been a week and a lot to note as rationalization for not keeping up with this web journal venture.
slept with an ex-girlfriend. not a good idea this time, though some say it never is.
when someone has insecurities, is it inevitable that they'll attribute to you the same judgements they have of themselves, and then blame you for thinking the very things about them that they think about themselves even though there is scant evidence that you actually think these things and you really don't. or at least you didn't...
earlier that day i got a call about this documentary in equatorial africa on the MSF (doctors without borders). something about embarking mid-july and covering humanitarian aid missions in impoverished nations - AIDS, malnutrition... In the week since, it's turned into leaving anywhere from a week from now (don't i need shots or something?) to the first week in july and moved from sad zones into HOT ZONES, like COMBAT ZONES, which are certainly also sad but with the addition of artillery. the director and producer took me out for lunch today and asked after my physical fitness. like, can i run through the jungle if chased by rwandan militia? hm...
meanwhile, $550 a day for battlegrounds part 3. booked 5 days originally, with the offer of fifteen for later in the month. now i'll be lucky if i get 5 total. they keep changing plans, ruining my money.
tonight i'm loading the worst footage i've ever seen in my life. the project will remain nameless so i don't get fired if anyone ever reads this. i am amazed people were paid to make what i'm looking at.
but i have the promise of endless consistent employment from this post house, and when you weigh that against africa, at exactly the same day rate (which they do indeed share), they have so little to do with each other that i can't even remember my own name.
MEANWHILE
i'm only using credit cards for expenses due to lack of cash. there are many expenses. but i have jobs. so, one day, i will also have money. but when? and will it be soon enough?
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